Today, I saw another Facebook post about the eulogy former President Obama delivered during the memorial service for Rev. Clementa C. Pinckney, a South Carolina state senator and the former pastor of Emanuel A.M.E. Church. This eulogy happened four years ago today and was recorded in an article in The New York Times on July 3, 2015.

It’s a beautiful moment of grace.

Following the June 17 attack happened, I remember being broken hearted, and I wrote this in the white pages of my bible. It’s a prayer.

Martyrs in Charleston

Help Lord!
Point out my own intolerance,
My own prejudices.
Those things in me that are disgusting.
Help me to give that to you,
And ask you to replace it with what
You want in my heart:
Help me step out of what is comfortable —
Because that comfort is an illusion.
I must fight,
Be brave,
Against all evil.
Reinvigorate your love in me
Toward all your creation,
All your people,
Your precious, beautiful people.

Kris hilburn williams, June 19, 2019

I have to fight my own incompetencies, my own desires. I constantly need God’s reinvigoration — new energy and fresh dispensations of grace — just to make it through day to day life.

I have to find and step into God’s grace over and over again. ❤