Again Seeker
An {again} seeker like me chases {re} words, the agains of rest, and repeat events that make life interesting.
Today, I was reading Jonathan Merritt‘s Learning to Speak God from Scratch. As I turned to the pages in chapter 11, I felt like Jonathan had been reading my mail. Especially after my day yesterday. I couldn’t rest. I was struggling. The thing is that sometimes my disappointment is directed toward others , when I’m…
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Today, I’m finding it hard to rest. It’s sometimes hard to trust God with our well-being when we’ve been disappointed yet again. Even simple expectations are often met with disappointment. There are people who disappoint me over and over again. On days like today, I have to focus on those who don’t. Those who show…
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The shade of paint in the front bedroom was nice, but there was something about it that never seemed to work. We’d moved a few things around as it went from my office to a guest bedroom and back again. I have very little closet space. My obsession with Kate Spade bags meant I didn’t…
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“I do not play this instrument so well as I should wish to, but I have always supposed that to be my own fault because I would not take the trouble of practicing.” Elizabeth Bennet, pride and prejudice by jane austen I love this quote. I lived it. I play the piano very ill. Because…
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This is just a shell of me, The mannequin I design To reflect the inner ego Of a self. You only see the fashion show; And, do not know the me that lies within. Your biased judgment is Based on my artwork and Your concept of reality. And I – I never enter the picture.…
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“Unimplemented change becomes regret,” the tweet from my friend Phill read. Just like that he gave me the word for today. The best sense of regret is expressed in Merriam-Webster is that it implies pain caused by deep disappointment, fruitless longing, or unavailing remorse. And it can go bad really quickly turning in to ruminative anguish.…
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I literally forgot to eat lunch today. As in I didn’t even think about it. At about 5 o’clock I wondered why I was shaky. Did I have lunch? Um, no. I faithfully promised Keck I’d take a walk this morning while it was still cool. Then, got so distracted that I didn’t. I wasn’t…
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Requiescat is Latin for a prayer said for the dead. It is usually said: Requiescat in pace. The phrase means rest in peace. We say it again and again. Rest in peace. When I was little, Memorial Day meant long trips to off-the-beaten-path cemeteries to place flowers on the graves of our family dead. We’d…
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It’s time for a new bible. I don’t really want to buy one. Yet, the New English Translation that I love is about to wear out. I don’t have any more room to write in the white, blank pages at the front and back. The writings and the musings helped me pray for my nephew…
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Merriam-Webster says that the word religion is from the “Middle English religioun, from Anglo-French religiun, Latin religion-, religiosupernatural constraint, sanction, religious practice, perhaps from religare to restrain, tie back.” Today, I finished reading the book, “Girl at the End of the World: My Escape from Fundamentalism in Search of Faith with a Future,” by Elizabeth Esther. I’m still sitting with…
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